By Cindy Lundhagen (guest writer)
As most of you may know by now, our dear friend and writer of Tuesdays Torch, Tim Sader, is currently in the intensive care unit at the Medical University of South Carolina. Tim is fighting for another miracle as I type these words. He is surrounded by family and friends and is deeply loved. Tim’s wife, Sammy, was in tears at one point in my visit on Monday. She said “tomorrow is Tuesday”. She was disheartened because for the first time in 505 weeks Tim would not be able to write his weekly Tuesdays Torch. She said she wished she could write it but she couldn’t. I asked her if she wanted me to write it for her and if so, what would she want me to say. Instead, she asked me to stand in for Tim this week and to write for him…so there would be a week 506…while Tim rested.
That’s how I wound up filling in for Tim this week. It seemed like such an honor at the moment I said I would do it. Now it just fills me with fear. I tried to get some inkling of an idea on where Tim would want to go next in his Torch by looking back as some of the recent entries. And it made me cry…and it made me feel so much more unworthy to write in his stead. You see…Tim’s most recent Torches were love letters. They were love letters about he and Sammy’s relationship. They were love letters that portrayed Tim’s everlasting love for Christ. They were epic love letters. And I don’t know how to write love letters. But this week I am going to try to write a love letter. I am going to try to do it for Tim.
I met Tim and Sammy probably close to two years ago. I was relatively new to church and relatively new to learning about Jesus. I signed up for some “Growth” classes in the church and that is where I found Tim and Sammy. I found this most amazing couple who were madly in love with each other and it was so endearing just to watch them. They just have this natural rhythm with each other that is magical…intoxicating…like they were just meant to be with each other. It’s a definite God thing that gives them a heartbeat for each other…a single heartbeat in two bodies. They are simply breathtaking. As God would say in the Old Testament, they are a “sweet aroma”.
And then there is Tim. Tim is this man that no wheel chair and no medical condition can hide. Tim in not defined that way. Tim is a man that knows who he is and knows whose he is…above all else. Tim comes across as quiet sometimes…until you get to know him. But really, he just knows when to speak and when not to speak. And when Tim speaks you are compelled to listen. He exudes Holy Spirit and Godly wisdom. Tim can mesmerize with a few simple words…much in the manner that Jesus does. He is like David in the Bible. He has a heart for God. And God doesn’t see like man sees. God sees the heart. He sees this big, wide open heart in Tim and he gifts Tim with this supernatural power to know his heart. He gives Tim the power to share his heart. And I think that’s why so many of Tim’s Tuesdays Torches read like love letters. It’s because Tim is in love. And when you are in love…it shows.
Tim’s love shows in everything he does. It shows in this gentle love of his bride whom he called “beautiful” on his birthday last Thursday. It shows in the loving faithfulness to God in the Tuesday Torches that he has written for 505 weeks straight…over 9 years of faithfully spreading God’s love around…sowing it everywhere. It shows in the Tim Sader Zoom virtual small group he started recently and that he leads in true Tim fashion. He leads it with love. It shows when he never quits sharing this Jesus that he knows with everyone that will spare a moment to listen. It shows in his humble spirit that runs his race with immense joy despite sometimes immense suffering. It shows. His love shows. His love always shows.
And to show our love for Tim, during this week 506, I want to close it with a prayer. I want to steal words of scripture to pray for our Tim this week because I think they fit him and are for him in this moment.
For this reason, I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you Tim with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your heart through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ for you Tim and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you Tim may always be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.