Battered Heart

17 Feb

Battered Heart


By: Damien Garrett

My childhood was like no other.  We was well taken care of! My father pasted away when he was 25 on Christmas Day.  I barely knew of him. Before I was even 2 my mother was remarried to my sisters Dad. We lived in Gastonia NC until I was almost 5, we packed up and moved into our brand new home in Lake Wylie SC! When the next school year started I was enrolled into Bethel Elementary.  I completed through 3rd grade there. At this moment in life mine and my sister’s lives were flipped upside down. My Mom and my sisters Dad decided to separate and get a divorce. All up to this point I thought we were the perfect All-American family. We always went on vacation and spent plenty of family time together. The only man that I knew as Daddy at this early age was being taken out of my life. It felt like my heart was chewed up and spit out! We moved in with my mom’s mother again! Every time when we ended up in this situation we were watched like we was ex-cons. Over the next 3 years we went through it like our family was the FBI, putting our lives under surveillance. I was put to the test of being a truly broken soul! My attitude was totally not of me, I was at a point where my little heart was hardened! I would back talk my mom for no reason. Even to folks I really know. Marijuana was the first true drug I experimented with! To my surprise it led to many others. I was blindsided. At the end of 3 years at my Grandmother’s house my mom was remarried once again. At this page in the diary of my life we returned to the Clover School District! This Demon of a Step Father was physically abusive and verbally to me and my baby sister. God says that he would never put anything on us we cannot handle. Since the beginning he was by our side and when that trumpet sounds all these things only make me that much stronger. I wasn’t really raised in the Church but in all of my days Jesus never lied to me about how His love for each of us was so powerful! All He has ever wanted from us is to let Him into our hearts. God is love and He died for us all.  He begs us to follow Him by just the words that we know from the Bible. The more we acknowledge Christ the more wisdom we will get from His word. Nothing Satan does against us can prosper. The stronger our relationship gets with God, the better our understanding of His plan.

Seeds were planted by many folks through my days, it was just so hard for me to surrender my worldly lifestyle! My mom stayed with the abusive husband until I was 15, then at that time they got a divorce. That was the first separation that gave me the relief of a house being lifted off my chest! In my eyes the only thing that husband did right was the financial part! It wasn’t long and she had another male in her life. I was way past fed up and hurt, I moved in with her mama again.  As a young adult by this time I was still not broke down enough to quit getting my education! I played a variety of sports in school and was very good at some. Cause of being mental abused childhood my girlfriend relationships never lasted long. My eleventh and twelve grade years I had scouts looking at me for scholarships. I narrowed it down to 2. But before my graduating year was complete, I had gotten my girlfriend pregnant. Boy this threw in a curve ball for my plans as what to do.  After lots of thinking I joined the Army.  My upbringing even though it was a lot of being mistreated I still had the correct knowledge of what a man needs to do when children were involved! We got married and she moved with me after Basic Training.  Before I was shipped off the child’s heart stopped beating. It was too late to turn this around I was already sworn in by oath. About 3 years went by and she committed sin against her husband as in adultery. This was a big blow to my already battered heart! Although once again God carried me through. Still after all of this I completed 8 years of military service! I became an alcoholic to ease the pain, but it only made matters worse. After a few more short-term relationships I met my oldest kid’s mother. We continued on for over eight years. She finally was broken from the ways I had treated her through our time together, so she decided it was best that we should go our separate ways. This was a life changer for me. Sorry the way that my life had been going, those people reading probably guessed that I went through some more unhealthy relationships.  Along a short path after my divorce I connected with my youngest son’s mother. Not too many months later she got pregnant. She’s an awesome mother and has my highest respect. I had been touched by Gods saving power before the turn of the century but had a lot to learn!  During my service years when I was deployed in combat on 3 occasions. Through all this turmoil Jesus saw fit to pull me out of harm’s way again. After that I was in and out of jails. In 2008 I was arrested for Armed Robbery.  It took me awhile after being incarcerated when I finally fell to my knees and laid it all down. I surrendered to the Lord with a good opened heart; no longer hardened by my battered life!

Damien Garrett – York, SC

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